Urk... >.O

grrrrr.... okay, I'm fairly ticked off right now... at EVERYTHING.... I mean... I can't explain it, but i'm just feeling very pissy right now. I skipped school yesterday cos I jsut couldn't stand to go. there are so many utterly ridiculously STUPID people there that I can't sit through class anymore without feeling the overwhelming urge to blow someones head off. It's really weird... And nothing helps. I mean, like, some people cure their homicidal urges with fighting games, their need for speed with racing games, and thier feelings of inadequacy by mastering other kinds of games. i jsut... can't do that! I don't know why, but nothing helps. I cant force myself to work on anything, and my grades are plummeting as I speak anyway... it's really, really irritting but i feel like i ant help it. i mean... i know whats going on, I'm probably clinically depressed again, but i cant turn to anybody without them telling me "Oh, youre jsut PMSing, youll get over it" or something like "youre doing it to yourself", "i dont ahve any sympathy for you, you got yourself into it..."

i know i got myself into it! for petes sake, i know its my fault and im the onyl one who can fix it, but i can't figure out how to. I jsut cant force myself to do anything, no matter how much i try. ive tried for the past few weeks... it's just not working.

i think im headed for a nervous breakdown again... Standby for further updates... -_-