Happy new year?
An hour into the new year and already a breakdown.
God, I just want to cry. It won't solve anything, but I MISS my friends! Nothing I can do, but I miss them, and it physically hurts. This is my second New Year in Michigan, and... I don't know. It physically hurts. My gut feels like it's been stabbed, my throat is tight, my chest hurts... My eyes burn and sting and my tears are aggrivating my cracked and chapped lips.
God, I wish I was HOME. I wish this move had never happened, that I was still back, toasting the new year with Jaslynn and Paris, sipping sparkling cider and tossing back caviar, grinning at thier disgusted looks. I miss the Bauers, Aunt Al, I miss Darlene coming to pick them up a bit after midnight, wishing her a happy new year...
I'm going to miss coming back to school, excitedly sharing my winter break with my friends.
Happy New Years to all of you; To Jaslynn and Paris, whom I miss with all my heart; To Ashley and Chanel, who are and will forever be my soul sisters, To Nicole and Catty, whom I will never in a million New Years forget; Gabby, the little sister I always had to protect and teach; and Kierston, the one who will always and forever be my first real, true best friend.
God, I miss you.
In honor of the people who made my life worth living in Maryland, I make this New Years Pledge:
I, Elizabeth Smith, resolve to change to the best of my ability in the year of Two-Thousand-Six, Anno Domini. I resolve to do this by being less isolative and more social. I resolve to no longer passively take the insults and put-downs that come my way, but to defende myself against them and give the insulters no more reason to insult. I'm now promising that I will focuse academically and athletically, toning my mind and body so that I can live healthier, longer, and happier, so that I can be there fore my friends as they've been there fore me. I resolve to tell people when I'm sad or angry, instead of hiding it with the cop-out 'I'm jsut tired'. I resolve to fake it less and be more genuine, to tell people the good things about me, rather than push them away with the bad things. I resolve to try and put th past behind me and live for the future, however hard it may be to see, however rought the road gets I shall not EVER take the 'easy' way out. I won't mope behind a screen name all my life, but celebrate with the people who care about me.
With all my heart, I will try to hold true to these promises in the year 2006. If I should fail, these resolutions will by all means carry to the next year, and on and on until I am living the life I WANT to live.
God, I miss you guys back home... I love you <3
Good night.
God, I just want to cry. It won't solve anything, but I MISS my friends! Nothing I can do, but I miss them, and it physically hurts. This is my second New Year in Michigan, and... I don't know. It physically hurts. My gut feels like it's been stabbed, my throat is tight, my chest hurts... My eyes burn and sting and my tears are aggrivating my cracked and chapped lips.
God, I wish I was HOME. I wish this move had never happened, that I was still back, toasting the new year with Jaslynn and Paris, sipping sparkling cider and tossing back caviar, grinning at thier disgusted looks. I miss the Bauers, Aunt Al, I miss Darlene coming to pick them up a bit after midnight, wishing her a happy new year...
I'm going to miss coming back to school, excitedly sharing my winter break with my friends.
Happy New Years to all of you; To Jaslynn and Paris, whom I miss with all my heart; To Ashley and Chanel, who are and will forever be my soul sisters, To Nicole and Catty, whom I will never in a million New Years forget; Gabby, the little sister I always had to protect and teach; and Kierston, the one who will always and forever be my first real, true best friend.
God, I miss you.
In honor of the people who made my life worth living in Maryland, I make this New Years Pledge:
I, Elizabeth Smith, resolve to change to the best of my ability in the year of Two-Thousand-Six, Anno Domini. I resolve to do this by being less isolative and more social. I resolve to no longer passively take the insults and put-downs that come my way, but to defende myself against them and give the insulters no more reason to insult. I'm now promising that I will focuse academically and athletically, toning my mind and body so that I can live healthier, longer, and happier, so that I can be there fore my friends as they've been there fore me. I resolve to tell people when I'm sad or angry, instead of hiding it with the cop-out 'I'm jsut tired'. I resolve to fake it less and be more genuine, to tell people the good things about me, rather than push them away with the bad things. I resolve to try and put th past behind me and live for the future, however hard it may be to see, however rought the road gets I shall not EVER take the 'easy' way out. I won't mope behind a screen name all my life, but celebrate with the people who care about me.
With all my heart, I will try to hold true to these promises in the year 2006. If I should fail, these resolutions will by all means carry to the next year, and on and on until I am living the life I WANT to live.
God, I miss you guys back home... I love you <3
Good night.
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